What’s at the top of your bucket list? 

Spill. Where are the places you want to visit?  Do you have a travel bucket list?  Should I start a travel series on the blog?  Should I start liking beets?  If I eat beets, will hair grow on my chin?  Why do pickled beets smell like the inside of a rhinoceros belly button?!


There you have it.  My perplexing life questions.


If travel was free, you'd never see me again.


  What's on your bucket list?We traveled to Bali to visit a healer for cancer. It was life changing. We travelled for healing & came home with LOVE & beautiful handcrafted jewelry. It's here on the blog...  What's on your bucket list?We traveled to Bali to visit a healer for cancer. It was life changing. We travelled for healing & came home with LOVE & beautiful handcrafted jewelry. It's here on the blog...


I do think a travel series could be a hoot tho.  Should we do this together?  You tell me where to go and Michael and I will knock it off the bucket list.  This may be your only chance to tell me where to go. *insert big toothy grin*

PS.  I have champagne taste and a soda pop pocket book.

Ever since this blog post & video about Michaels terminal cancer, our bucket list priorities jumped straight to the top of queue.


    handmade-designer-jewelry-What's on your bucket list?We traveled to Bali to visit a healer for cancer. It was life changing. We travelled for healing & came home with LOVE & beautiful handcrafted jewelry. It's here on the blog..    What's on your bucket list? We traveled to Bali to visit a healer for cancer. It was life changing. We travelled for healing & came home with LOVE & beautiful handcrafted jewelry. It's here on the blog..


We’ve also been swinging at cancer like a Southern church lady swings her purse.


You may remember from a few month ago, my hubbys cancer moved into his central nervous system.  What’s worse than terrible?  It was that.

It has been a time of  leaning, loving and anticipating heartache and change throughout this whole cancer journey.   A time to find the light, in the midst of the darkness.


BALI was THAT place for us.


What's on your bucket list? We traveled to Bali to visit a healer for cancer. It was life changing. We travelled for healing & came home with LOVE & beautiful handcrafted jewelry. It's here on the blog..      What's on your bucket list? We traveled to Bali to visit a healer for cancer. It was life changing. We travelled for healing & came home with LOVE & beautiful handcrafted jewelry. It's here on the blog..


I don’t know how else to describe Bali, other than: !!!!!djkfjds;fdjf;dkjfirjefaWOW!!!!!

The people of Bali are the best part.  The very best part.  They are the happiest souls I’ve ever met.  They are hard working, kind and spiritually grounded.  They are full of love.


What happened in Bali ?

One day…we drove for hours… deep into the mountains… over hills…near lakes…saw a volcano… spotted wild monkeys … to meet a Balian healer.  There are no words to describe our experience. It was life changing.


 This man.  I n c r e d i b l e.  So full of love, with such a divine gift of healing.


Meeting a Balian healer in Bali, Indonesia


After arriving back home, Michaels cancer in his spinal root nerves had IMPROVED.  His blood work had improved, his spinal cord improved.  Back flip!!! (excuse the pun) Celebrate!!   Wooooohooooooooo!!!!

With the excitement of the upswing came a down swing.  Unfortunately, we recently had the crushing news that the cancer is still on the nerves of his brain.  Leptomeningeal metastasis.  The brain trumps the spinal cord in order of priority and concern.  Sorry I said that trump word.


The oncologist has strongly urged Michael to start a daily oral chemo pill.


Still.  Hitting the pause button.


Yes, it is only a pill, but it is still chemotherapy.  Every day.


Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans. Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans.


Because sometimes what you don’t do is as important as what you do.


We’ve come to learn that cancer (even terminal) is a similar process to mourning.  It doesn’t get easier – it just changes.

Our goal is to continue to hoodwink cancer.  Sucker punch it.  Throat punch it.   Brush its teeth with a brick.  

Who says you have to do that in a hospital? A bucket list fucket list sounds like way more fun.   This dreaded disease takes so much; I just hope that the journey continues to give something good in life, even if just a little.


Travel is good.  Really good.


  Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans.    Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans.

  Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans.    Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans.


Cancer is like having a naggy little jerk in your head going, “Should I really be spending my time doing the things that I really don’t want to do?”  It’s like taking a big twirly straw and sucking up your energy until you’re a California raisin.  It’s a real eye opener.  It’s scary shit.

I suppose travel is a form of escapism.  I feel responsible to not be really sad around others.  When your world feels like it is coming undone, you just make different choices.

Wanna know why?  *smothers cigar with heel*… I’ve noticed something lately and I’m desperate to know if I’m alone in this and/or drunk.  When you travel… your big problems seem smaller. You see life through a different lens.  And you don’t have to make your bed.


For the win.


And hey, you can have wine during the day, while on holidays.   Let’s put it this way. Certain alcohol has beneficial antioxidants.  And I like to fight cancer sometimes.

Beeeteeedubs, it’s hard to find wine in Bali. I stared at Michael with the kind of desperation that usually only exists in times of war.  But there were palm trees.


  Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans.    Do you love to travel? See more about beautiful Bali here and explore the island...and all the handcrafted, hand made jewelry made with love by Balinese artisans.


Traveling to Bali also meant that we could indulge in a bit of local beer, enjoy the quiet beaches and the even the bustling streets.  I tried to resist bringing home every nook and cranny of the island.  I did shop for pretty jewelry along the way!!

Shop here for beautiful handmade necklaces and bracelets. Lovingly hand made in Bali, Indonesia and gift wrapped for YOU!

Many moons ago, and when I first started this blog… I used to travel to Bali for clients.  I bought furniture, home goods and so much more.  It has inspired my entire design career.  You can see much of Bali in my home here, in our treehouse and in the cabin.

This time, we really enjoyed meeting Balinese artists and buying jewelry.  Nothing is made in a factory.  Every bead, every tassel, every pom pom is put on by hand.  One by one.  Handcrafted.  Made with love.  I just had to bring some of that home.


 Gorgeous handmade necklace for sale on the blog | DESIGN THE LIFE YOU WANT TO LIVE | @lynneknowlton Each piece of jewelry is beautifully gift wrapped and sent with love!  Gorgeous handmade necklace for sale on the blog | DESIGN THE LIFE YOU WANT TO LIVE | @lynneknowlton Each piece of jewelry is beautifully gift wrapped and sent with love!  Gorgeous handmade necklace for sale on the blog | DESIGN THE LIFE YOU WANT TO LIVE | @lynneknowlton Each piece of jewelry is beautifully gift wrapped and sent with love!


They are available here in my blog shop, and only in small batches.  I only have some styles listed in the blog right now, but will add more in the next few days.  There are bracelets, necklaces and anklets.  So super duper pretty!!!!

Each one is gift wrapped.  Like the knitting needles and door track hardware, the packaging is just as important as what is in the package.  I’m a weirdo like that.


 Shop here for beautiful handmade necklaces and bracelets. Lovingly hand made in Bali, Indonesia and gift wrapped for YOU!   Shop here for beautiful handmade necklaces and bracelets. Lovingly hand made in Bali, Indonesia and gift wrapped for YOU!   Shop here for beautiful handmade necklaces and bracelets. Lovingly hand made in Bali, Indonesia and gift wrapped for YOU!


My best advice (far better than the time I told my best friend to cut her hair in a mullet style..which turned out to be AWFUL advice) is to remember this…


Miracles happen

Gratitude changes everything.


Guys, I love you and I’m so grateful that you take the time to leave me love notes in the comment section.  Legit.  I read every word.  You matter to me. I would climb a moderately sized mountain for you.

Your words help us to slog our way out of the cancer swamp and live la vida loca on the beach of good health with little umbrella drinks in our hands. ( Thank you Auntie Patch for leaving that comment for me! )


Your words grab my heart.  Thank you.

Spill it.  What’s on your bucket list?


Lynne

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94 Responses

  1. Aliyyah says:

    Hi Lynne,

    First, I adore you blog. I love the way you write – so raw and natural. I came across some of your blog post re: Cancer. I have lost a loved one to this nasty disease and hear almost every day about someone being diagnosed. It’s horrible! My wedding caterer is experiencing the wrath of cancer, but has been experiencing some positive outcomes from her experiments with Gerson Therapy. you can read more here – http://www.farmgirlfood.ca/index.cfm/blog/ and via her regular updates on instagram

  2. Marla Housekeeper says:

    Hi Lynne,
    We’ve been in contact recently as my husband also has Bing Neel. Reading your blog helps me, your honesty speaks to me. We are coming up on our 17th anniversary since original diagnosis, I’ve been feeling as though I’m grieving which has been hard looking at all.the years battling cancer. How long has it been for you? After going through my husbands dramatic change to bing neel 2 years ago and stem cell transplant in February, I am just exhausted and sick of cancer. I’m normally resilient but I think all the years have caught up with me mentally and physically. We need a trip, but that’s not a possibility due to finances from the strain financially from medical. One day at a time, faith always keeps me going. Thanks again for sharing your thoughts!

  3. Lor says:

    Beautiful. Beautiful souls, beautiful journey. Thank you for sharing. And we will all share our positive thoughts and prayers and love in your direction.

    <3 <3

  4. Carla Work-In-Progress says:

    Wow! I’m so grateful that you write this blog and that I some how found my way on your list. (Don’t ask how because then I’ll be telling age, as I truly don’t recall.) Yours is the ONLY blog that I leave as unread until I have the time read it because skimming the highlights would be like pouring a glass of wine, swirling it around in the glass, sniffing it (like I really remember what I learned that many years ago at my first wine tasting what the smell should tell me) and then fast forwarding to when I’m rinsing the glass and pouring the remnants of it down the kitchen sink and placing the glass in the dishwasher. Negative! (Well, only that one time that I fell sleep after only a few sips and woke up the next day and something was floating in it) I read your every word because I always do an open mouth laugh multiple times before I’m done. Not to mention I learn something, or I’m inspired to research something so I can learn something and I’m moved to the point that I feel like I’ve had a sneak visit with a good friend even though we knew we should’ve been doing something other catching up with each other’s lives, go to the brink of tears and come back around the brushes to laughing like third graders that only has to worry about homework and making their bed! I just said all this to say that I haven’t gotten up the nerves to share my ups and downs as you have but your openness and honesty empowers me not focus on all that’s goin the way I want it to but instead, continue to go right even though life feels like it’s going wrong! You and your family are in my prayers and I’m sending you all the love that can be sent through electronic communication! GOD blessing always!

    • Hi Carla!

      So happy you are on my list too and believe me sista, I end up doing things like that too.. and then wonder.. whaaaaa?! How’d I get here, but hey, I’m glad I found my way here 🙂

      Hello menopause. It’s knocking on my door all the time. gah.

      PS. I hope you are a blogger or online influencer because your writing is spectacular. You go girl !! I loved reading YOUR WORDS!

      Big love, big laughs, big everything… (except big butt) hahahaaa…but I’m inching that way with my holiday food baby… Maybe I should shop for some maternity pants to prep for my holiday eating?! #ThankYouStretchyPants

      Cheers!!!!
      Lynne xo

  5. Elizabeth Bekker says:

    Hi Lynne
    Looooove your blog (and your products) You are a real fix when I need it and so don’t deserve to worry about cancer!
    So sorry to hear about Michaels cancer and just need to tell you that I am asking the real live God that I serve to heal him. I will pray for Michael every day
    Now you go and have yourself and everyone you love a merry BIG Christmas with lots of laughter and love and wine and whatever makes you happy.
    Lots of big hugs and real smiles and healthy wishes
    Elizabeth

    • Thank you Elizabeth. We never turn down a prayer. We have good friends who pray for us, who love on us, and lots of angels who are looking out for us. I’m so grateful for all the healing energy and wanted to say a big THANK YOU for praying for Michael.

      Big love and happy holidays to you and your family!
      Lynne xo

  6. Krista MacLaren says:

    Lynne, you write like a friend. I feel every word with my heart. You make me think. Big thoughts and little ones. Thank you for being you, funny and honest and raw. Just because I don’t know you doesn’t mean my heart doesn’t send every drop of energy and love to you and Michael and your kids. That’s all I got….so fuckit CANCER! Just know that somewhere in this world you have touched another and I can only hope the same for you. Xo K

    • Oh my Krista. Thank you. You literally gave me a big lump in my throat and a tear in my eye. I’m so grateful for your the healing energy you are sending our way. Cancer can just suck it, and yet it also brings beautiful souls into our lives… like you. Thanks for that!

      From across the ponds and yonder 🙂
      Lynne xoxo

  7. DC says:

    Thank you for you! for your blog! for sharing your life…..you are an inspiration and just fun! I love spending time with you – I feel like I am right across from you while I read your blog – it is a special time….thank you!

  8. Kathy says:

    Lynnie, Lynne, Lyn,

    May your holidays be filled with only joy, laughter, miracles and magic! And snow. There will always be snow. Thank you for the update on Michael, the curiosity about the smell a rhinoceros’ belly button, and the knowledge that Bali is BYOB. Please remember to take care of yourself too. The standard airline advice about putting your oxygen mask on first actually starts at home. Here’s to more healing, hugs, and adventure in 2017! Now, off to see your treasure trove of jewelry. Love you, sweet friend!

    PS: My post on our retreat gets more views and spam comments than anything else I’ve written. I’m thinking of sending each spammer a container of Spam.

    PPS: My little Michael is dating a girl from Durham. Her parents still live there. IF there’s a wedding…We can double date with our big Michaels. How small is our planet?

    • Hi Kathy!!!!

      Oh my gosh, it was such an honour to have you here. Legit. Honour. I just love you to bits.

      I went back and read your blog post and watched your video, and loved every moment. I tried to leave a comment, but it wouldn’t let me. How funny is that!?? Maybe your blog knew I may drop and Fbomb? hahahaha.

      Thank you for the oxygen mask reminder. I truly needed that.

      And wait a second. Waiiiiiiiiiit a second. What is the chance of the Durham connection?!!!! Holy batman!!!!! That gives me goosebumps!!!!!! Is this your way of telling me that they may be getting married in my backyard?haha.

      I love you. I really do.

      Happy ho ho to you and fam! xoxoxo

  9. Liz Sproule says:

    Lynne,
    Thank you so much for your writing. I am sending positive thoughts toward you and Michael and your whole family. Congrats on the trip to Bali! It looks like it was fantastic. So good for the two of you.
    Reading through the comments I loved the “canceriege.” I’m totally borrowing this phrase. I’m the canceriege for my father-in-law (Metastatic Prostate Cancer Stage IV with a PEG and trach) as well as the case manager for my mother-in-law (uncontrolled hypertension with significant edema that recently led to a 5 days stay at the hospital for cellulitis). I live with them, as well as my husband, three teenagers, and dog. Like most caregivers, I’m also balancing this with my full-time job.
    I was able to take my son for a 2 1/2 week trip to Peru last Dec/Jan, including a few days at Cusco/Machu Pichu. It is amazing what traveling can do to change your outlook. As my in-laws medical conditions have worsened, it has become more difficult to leave them but I continue to look forward to new travel opportunities in the future.
    Again, thank you for sharing your story.
    Liz

    • Liz Sproule says:

      How funny. I didn’t think my reply was posting. Now you have it twice!
      Liz

      • I love both entries, Liz… so I hope it is okay to keep them both in. Yes, you can absolutely borrow CANCIERGE 🙂 … it sounds like you are already living that title with honour 🙂 xx

        Happy travels…happy EVERYTHING in between…

        Sending you much love and many thanks for your necklace order too.

        Lynne xx

  10. Liz Sproule says:

    Lynne,
    I love your blog. Thanks for keeping us posted on Michael’s fight with bucket list items vs. traditional treatments. Bali sounds fantastic!
    We’re going through a rough patch in our family life. We’re living with and caring for my in-laws; my father-in-law has metastatic prostate cancer stage IV- in the spine & pelvis- plus a trach and PEG tube AND my mother-in-law was recently hospitalized for 5 days for cellulitis. Of course this is in addition to “regular life”- marriage, parenting (3 kids), and working full-time. It can be a challenge.
    I look forward to a time when my husband and I will have more control over our days/schedules. In the meantime, blogs like yours let me see a different path.
    Again, thank you!
    Liz

    • Ahhh Liz,

      You have a MASSIVE plate full. M A S S I V E. I want you to promise me that you remember to take care of YOU during this time too. Take those moments to be on your own, enjoy a good book, a wee road trip, an escape, even a Netflix marathon… because hey… the best gift you can give to those around you.. is a healthy happy YOU.

      Bahhhhlieve me, I have to remind myself of that all the time.

      I’m so very happy that our journey helps, even just in a wee bit, for your journey.

      Sending you a massive hug and a bonk ton of love,
      Lynne xx

      • Liz Sproule says:

        THANK YOU!
        You’re so right about self care. I’ve made eating healthy and exercising a priority over the last 1 1/2 years (and lost 85lbs doing it). It makes all the difference.
        I also read a ton- it’s escapism at its best!
        Your blog is also a welcome escape. Your positive attitude and this loving community make me feel less alone. Keep doing what you’re doing and take care of yourself as well.
        Liz

  11. Tania says:

    Just sending you some love. I’m proud of how you and Michael are walking. : )

  12. “Gratitude changes everything.” This statement couldn’t be any more true. Lot’s of love to your entire family! xo

  13. jan says:

    i believe in miracles and can totally see that happening here. keep fighting the fight and love to you all! pretty jewelry!

  14. Michele says:

    Have you done any research on Phoenix Tears? Look it up online. It is really informative. It makes sense and is a natural alternative. Wishing you both peace and love and lots of laughter.

    • We have Michele!

      We have something very similar, and Michael is going to try it this month too. Treating cancer is like cooking spaghetti, we try it all and throw it up against the wall to see what sticks. Whatever works, sticks. We are always willing to try anything once. You just never know which one will stick. xx

      Big love, and thanks for the awesome advice!
      Lynne xx

  15. Leslie says:

    I had a lump in my throat when I got an email from you … thinking about you all … so happy to hear from you. that’s all.

    • Hi Leslie,

      Sorry about that big ‘ol lump and I’m so happy that you received the update too 🙂

      I send out a Friday email every week now ( they are a real hootenany, right?right)… so it makes it much easier for all of us to stay connected and in the loop.

      I’m afraid that many of my emails may be landing in spam folders tho. I hope that hasn’t been happening to you.

      Sending you big love and hugs….
      and hopefully fewer lumps…

      Lynne xx

  16. Dotti Matyi says:

    I lost my best friend to cancer 20 years ago and they had originally given her only two months but she lived over another two years. She always had another adventure planed to look forward to especially as she was going through treatments, always focusing on the positive joys of the next adventure and it didn’t have to be huge trips, she never went farther than Mexico or a cruise. Life is about having enough time to live it. I am praying and sending your family all the hugs and love and strength I can.
    Best always,
    Dotti

    • Hi Dotti !

      I love that adventurous plan! Sounds like your friend had a BRILLS plan! She must have been one beautiful soul.

      I think everyone should do that kind of adventurous plan, with or without cancer.

      Big love and big wishes…
      Lynne xx

  17. Auntiepatch says:

    First of all, how do you know what the inside of a rhinoceros belly button smells like?!
    Second, and let me get this straight, you talked a FRIEND into cutting her hair in a mullet style?!?!? Lordy girl, you could sell ice to an Eskimo! Love it!
    Third – tell Michael, and I know it will be hard for him because he’s a guy, to kick Cancer in gonoids good and hard. Let him know that we are all behind him. He’s a good man, husband, and father.

    Blessings on you, your Hunky Husband, and your Fabulous Family.

    Love ya ~ Auntiepatch =^..^=

    P.S. Bali looks blissful!

    • Hi love!!

      I hope you liked the nod to you in the blog post. I have loved loved loved how you have stuck with me through thick and thin of my years of blogging.

      I still love and follow Karen from the Art of Doing stuff. You too? I bet you are.

      Oh heck yeah. I talked her into it. But then again, I’m f’n ancient so it was easy to do since that was the style. haha.

      Kicking cancers arse. It needs a good swift kick right now.

      Love ya right back,
      Lynne xoxoxoxo

  18. I love that you are committed to reading and responding! Thank you for that! With writing, we can momentarily find our way out of the shadiness! By the way, I am not offended one bit by your use of ‘French,’ I use it quite commonly myself and recently read that it can be a sign of intelligence-cheers to that! When life hands you lemons, squeeze the shit out of them, it makes better lemonade!

    I love the simplicity and beauty of your website, design and photos, do you designed all of it yourself? I envision mine to be much nicer and inviting but I am ridiculously stupid at those types of things! Same as my blog, so many entries land in my notes and never make it to where others mag hopefullky connect to them.. I’m not sure what the hell and afraid of?

    Maybe as I had up from the office to my breathing place, I’ll get at a blog post while enjoying my favourite vintage and see if I can make a go of it, thank you for your inspiration! The last time I logged into my blog I changed the name of the page to “Ass Over Teakettle.” based on my lousy and now too long legs, which are disconnected from my body due to MS). I had had yet another all-too-familiar tumble-in an arena, backwards in my wheelchair, whilst wearing a skirt!! Friggin lovely!! Wish I could’ve blamed it on the wine! Hate the chair and only use it for convenience but…..really?!

    Here’s to lemons, and grapes! I am toasting you from here! Please keep inspiring others to find their creativity!
    I raise my glass of wine to you, because no great stories start over a salad!

    With kindness,
    Cheryl

    • Hi Cheryl!

      Yes! I absolutely love responding in the comments, because I love love love hearing from beautiful souls like you! Besides, my blog readers are way more entertaining than I am. I have laugh out loud moments AFTER a blog post. The words in the comment section are more interesting to me than the actual blog post itself. haha.

      I hear ya, sista. It is a really really really big job to get the words on a page, and hit that publish button. I always think… if it scares me… then I should hit that publish button. Nothing is easy. Fooooshur.

      Yes, I designed my site myself. I have the help of a web ninja who helps me for those moments when I *face palm* and can’t figure things out.. but for the most part, I just learn learn learn and hit that publish button.

      I’m so sorry to hear about your journey with MS. Now that sounds like a beautiful start to a blog post. I love your title.. and remember this…

      If you are afraid, then you are on the right path. Nothing happens when things are easy. It is when the rubber hits the road, the going gets tough and life hits you in the face with lemons.

      Write it.

      Sending you big love and happy trails in your journey…
      Lynne xxoxoxo

  19. rebekah:-) says:

    sending great, big, squishy hugs your way:-)

    you inspire me!:-)

    love and light,

    rebekah:-)

  20. lynda osborne says:

    Thanks for the update and nice that your holiday and healer in Bali rocked! Until my hubby diagnosed w cancer I did not believe in Chemo. BUT,,,i now have a different outlook. To MY mind…our bodies are finely tuned chemical lab processors..digesting our food and giving us life and energy. But, for whatever reason, the process has run amuck and needs more than a little urging to get back on track. I now see Chemo as the sledgehammer that makes our body take notice! We can support the chemo shit show with healthy food, fab trips to Bali, etc, positive thinking, exercise like Yoga, support like acupuncture, etc etc.. There doesn’t seem to be much of an alternative at this time..tho I bet in a few years this chemo will be looked on as barbaric. My research indicates that a positive outlook and something to look forward to are key for longevity where one can beat all the “odds”… All the very best.. I know you are doing the best you can and Caregiver to Caregiver…continue to look after yourself too. xoxo

    • Hi Lynda!

      I one billion trillion percent agree with you 🙂 There was a time when Michael did chemo (for years) and it worked GREAT for him. He tolerated it well (well, as well as chemo can be) and I truly believe it has kept him on this earth for so much longer. Our health care in Canada is top notch I N C R E D I B L E. We are so so so so very grateful.

      This time…they can’t assure us that chemo will work because there are only about 44 other documented cases in the world. Erhhhmergerd, right? LOL. It is so very rare that his cancer has passed his blood brain barrier.

      We may take our hand off the pause button too, some day. It could be tomorrow. 🙂 LOL… but until then… living la vida loca ahahahaahaha…

      Sending massive hugs from one caregiver to another. It is hard to be a CANCIERGE ….and you sound absolutely ahhhhhmazing.

      Big love,
      Lynne xx

    • lynda osborne says:

      Cancierge eh??? I LOVE it!! I couldn’t recall your husband’s original dx so just looked at prior blogs. OMG so many of your loved ones gone… I am at a loss for words. I see your uncle passed after 8 mos of M Myeloma… my husband dx 9 mos ago with it…..has gone into remission and will finish his first series of chemo mid Feb…45 weeks of rx.. I just asked him if he has thought about his bucket/fkit list…..he responded that he wants to get his “affairs in order” first..It is something he/we keep ignoring… We expect that there will be several rounds of rx as his disease is not curable and secondary cancers happen due to the rx…soooo… I am learning that we just take a day at a time…don’t worry as when stuff happens we will just deal w it…meantime LIVE OUR LIVES…. MY heart is with you and your family and like your other bloggers, you and your husband are engrained in my thoughts and mind…that little area where I have my list of people who have cancer and who I care about and who I pray for and wish the best for.

  21. Susan says:

    A slow stroll through the souks of Marrakesh. The senses alive with the sights and smells. Buying spices and resins, making hard decisions over multiple pairs of babouche, lanterns and carpets and exotic fruit.
    And then into the silence of the desert……the wide open sky and a high up view from the back of a camel.

    I am going to do it in 2018,

  22. Elizabeth Dulmage says:

    Ha, I think auto correct made Lynne into Lyme!
    Lymes – and limes – are so tasty in drinks with umbrellas…..

  23. Elizabeth Dulmage says:

    Lyme and Michael,
    As always, you guys are amazeballs.
    Keep up the cancer-kicking, life-fulfilling, Bali-glorying!
    Looking forward to seeing you on your next trip west, where you can reacquaint yourselves with Vangroovy’s not-quite-as-warm-and-no-palm-trees-but-still-gorgeous beaches.
    Elizabeth xo

    • Now there’s an idea, Elizabeth ! Van-groovy! Shelby is coming back to Ontario next month, I’m going to need to ask her to pack some van-groovy in her luggage.

      Sending big love to you and the fam!! xx

  24. Bud, my soldier and I would love to travel to Vimy ridge… He’s of course been there but I have not. I would also love to got to Beaumont Hamel to pay tribute to all of the beautiful Newfoundland soldiers that did not make it home. Other than those places a pilgrimiage if you will I’m a complete homebody. Thank you so very much for sharing your story with us, you inspire. Gratitude does change everything… I think those that have lost are the ones that Know that so intimately. We are driving to Montreal to bid farewell to my beautiful Uncle this weekend I am so sad but also so very grateful to him and for him. Cancer fucking sucks. Love to you, you shining beautiful star.

    • Laurie!

      You MUST get to Vimy Ridge! We went there as a family and it totally grabbed a hold of my heart. It was beautiful, sad, courageous and heartwarming…. all at once… to think what happened on those very fields.

      France holds a beautiful spot in their hearts for Canadians, for that very reason. Pretty incredible!!

      I read about the loss of your uncle this week (it was in Facebook,but still…don’t judge me haha)… and wow… my heart broke for you and your family.

      Cancer is a total asshole.

      Sending you massive love my friend. Massive love.

      Lynne xx

  25. I admire your courage and amazing sense of humor when the challenges of life stomp you in the face.

    You are the best … and I wish for you miracles and a lot more good wine.

    Stay heroic.

  26. I have drafted several responses to your blog, several times, with so much to say. Regardless of the drops I have never sent, I should send them to you, even if in part! I love, love, love reading this blog, please keep writing!
    I am always curious to know how Michael is doing and am cheering for you guys all the time! [I met him and your kids a few years ago.] I also know someone else who took the same path, and went to a Peruvian healer with some awesome results! I learned a lot from this woman when she returned from Peru and have considered these types of healing many times; how to make it happen must be a challenge in itself! But, like a bucket list, or fuck it list, we can’t be afraid to except the challenge, take the risk!
    I also adore your website, your ideas, and shopping on your website! Your blog is like the good book I can pick up when I’m in my cosy chair with my favourite coffee or glass of wine.
    Thank you!
    Cheryl

    • Cheryl….

      Thank you for writing…’please keep writing’. Sometimes, I sit back and think: ‘what the effff am I doing?’ I write. I throw my words out to the universe. I always HOPE that my words may make a difference in the lives of others.

      Something GOOD must happen from all the shittiness. Pardon my French.

      I am so super duper duper impressed that you are LOCAL. Oh my goodness. We are like a hop skip and jump from each other!

      Thanks for the love…thanks for the beautiful words…

      Grabbing a glass of wine and settling into a cozy chair….
      Lynne xx

  27. Kevin says:

    More power to you and your husband, Lynne. The mind is a powerful thing. Harness it’s power. Merry Christmas to you. I hope we all have a Happy New Year !!!

  28. AHHHH….The Bucket/Fuckit list. My hubby is from London. All his family is there. We would go a couple/three times a year (when we were working) and when Mikey’s Mum was alive. We were there one Christmas and arrived on Christmas Eve..Not a big deal for many, but for this “Crazy for Christmas” woman, it was a big deal. Problem, Mum was housebound and was limited in her years left. So there we were on Christmas Eve in LONDON..did I say Christmas Eve?. More than anything, I want to go downtown on Christmas Eve in London and hear the boys choir…ahhhh chills just went up my body. My hubby (which isn’t the one you met with the daughter named Shelby “BELL”) sang in that choir at Westminster Abbey he was a kid. That’s on the top of my list now that Mum is no longer here….I can take her with me! Take care and love and prayers for you and your family. Robin P.S. Keep traveling..spend the money (even if you don’t have it)…right now it’s the thing to do. xoxoxo

    • Ahhhh THANKS Robin!! I loved hearing your story…and now I’m suddenly dreaming of listening to a Christmas choir on Christmas eve. New bucket list item!!

      Keeping one foot in front of the other… travel… spend the time… spend the money… it makes the big problems seem smaller. xoxo

  29. JudiBee says:

    Thank God above that Michael is still with you, you aren’t you without Michael. The ficklist is perfect way to see the world with a new perspective of beautiful vast wonders and not the nasty knot of cancer. Love to you both and I hope your Christmas is “merry and bright”.

  30. Danica says:

    Norway, (i realize this might be a weird choice but they have those majestic pictures of mountains and little towns around lakes) OR maybe just a big ass road trip across the US along the side roads – no freeways.

    I hope you guys see how much you show people to live life even it means in a house full dust and bath tubs with poly wrapped walls. (yes, I just admitted this to all of your followers). Fuck it right.

    Please go to Croatia. I forgot that place, it has a special kind of beauty. Or Brazil – Iguazu Falls specifically. Shit I can go on forever…..you guys are the best.

    Much Love from Your fellow country living friend.

    • Danica!!!!

      If you do the road trip across the US, we MUST meet up along the way. I’ll be the one screaming out of the airstream window. hahaha.

      or… we could just stop by your house on the way to the city.. LOL. x

      POLY WRAPPED walls! You crack me up. Can we just tell everyone that you are also building one heck of an ahhhhmazing home?! YUP.

      Croatia. Brazil. Down the road. It all sounds pretty incredible to me.

      Lynne xx

  31. Becki says:

    You guys are just amazing! Truly inspirational! I am happy you guys had the best time in Bali! Can’t wait to follow along the rest of your bucket list fuck it list. Hope Newfoundland is on it! 😂❤️

    • Ohhhhh heck yeah Becki…

      And get ready. You and the doc are gonna be looking at our mugs, poking our faces in your window… on our airstream road trip this spring.

      And.You.Think.I.Joke.

      Look out. I warned you. ahhahahaa.

      Love ya!
      Lynne xx

  32. Lin N says:

    From gut-wrenching, heart ripping to gratitude and love, such a delicate dance you and Michael are doing. Yes, travel is wonder-filled, beautiful escapism, educational, put things in perspective, adventure and happy times. I have a travel bucket list. I have a beautiful home. I am on my own, retired and aging. I have a quandary…slowly drown financially or sell and courageously move on from a place I very much love. Fear and Love, love and fear…. Thank you for Bali and bringing back memories of it’s lushness, the beautiful people and the most spectacular sunset I have ever witnessed. I am throwing out lots of healing energy to the universe for Michael and strength for you and love and peace for you both…Namaste

    • So well said Lin!

      The sunsets are ahhhhhhhmazing!!

      You are retired? That sounds beautiful. We are close to that age too. I know, I sound like I’m twelve but I’m actually 52. I feel like I’m 12 but I look like I’m 102. haha.

      Thank YOU for the healing energy. I can feel it !!

      Sending you light and love!

      Lynne xx

  33. Tara W Ross says:

    Lynne, as always you leave me breathless and laughing at the same time. I love you guys, and want to see you enjoy your bucket list/fuckit list immensely.

    I’ve also learned that gratitude goes a long way towards making this world a bearable place to live. Thanks for the reminder. Hugs to you and Micheal. xoxo

    • Tara!!!!

      How are you, my friend? Oh my goodness, I have missed you and our calls.

      Can you go and hug a palm tree for me? I know. Sounds ridiculous… but those trees need to know how much I love them. 🙂

      Let’s catch up soon!

      Big love to you my friend…
      oxooxoxo

  34. Angela says:

    Out of curiosity, how do you know what a rhinoceros belly button smells like? It seems an unlikely way to entertain yourself but it was definitely entertaining for me to try to picture you smelling one!

    In other news, thank you for your wonderfully spunky and wild sense of spirit. You radiate love and joy even in the midst of devastation. Thank you for being you.

  35. Christine Todd says:

    Thank you for the update. Even though we have never met, it is inspiring to read your blog. It is something I have done for many years. Your spirit and strength is what everyone should strive for, especially in a world that shows its ugly side once too often. You are so correct. We reassess our lives in times like this when life throws us too many curve balls. Cancer has struck down several people in my life, and I had my first personal scare in the last 2 years. My mom struggled for the last 5 years and lost her battle 3 months ago. I question what we are doing wrong on this earth that results in so many people affected with Cancer. I agree with you. I want to punch it and stomp on it. But Bali sounds like a better place to be. Lynne – you and Michael and your family are always in my prayers. We can always believe in miracles. May you all have a magical Christmas in that beautiful homestead of yours. PS. Funny side note. I wanted to add some lights to my small backyard. Needed to find out an easy way to make a frame for balls. LOL. My hubby pulled up your site last night with your directions. Today I received your email. Kismet.

    • Christine!

      You have read my blog for many years?!! Oh my goodness, massive hugs to you. I’m so very grateful that you stuck around through my yellow blurry photos and me tripping on my face trying to figure blogging out.

      I’m still learning, btw 🙂

      I’m sooooooooo sad to hear about your Mom and your own personal scare.

      Cancer takes the most beautiful souls on earth. I swear it.

      Thank you for your prayers. I’m so grateful.

      PS. Your husband saw my balls? Uhhhm, grapevine lights? I love that!!! Wooohoooo.

      small world xoox

      Big love and merry hoho xo

  36. Tania Pritz says:

    Lynne, you make me laugh until my decaf-soy-extrahot-nofoam-latte comes out of my nose. And I’m trying desperately to channel the force of that coffee geyser into Michael’s healing. I am a chiropractor. I know that the power that made Michael’s body CAN heal his body. I have seen miracles happen, and I’m praying one comes your way. You’re the bomb…with love, affection and healing, Tania.

  37. Meg says:

    You’re doing great. Seriously. You both are living life! I am glad that traveling soothes your souls. Healing comes in many forms- I pray that you both are covered with it from head to toe!!!!

  38. Kathrine Iacofano says:

    Imagine my surprise when I opened your email and there was Bali! I’m planning on going there too next year! I might have to think about that now because they don’t have wine??!!

    I believe in Miracles. I’ve experienced a few myself. Which now that I think about it we were taught they were a rarity. That miracles only existed for a chosen few. Well I’m here to tell ya that’s not true! Check out Louise Hay (You Can Heal Your Life) who I believe had a similar cancer as your hubby. *Had* being the operative word there. Ok, I’ll get off my soap box now. Hmmm, bucket list…… you know I don’t really have one! What’s that mean? All the best to you and Michael. on this journey. xoxo, Kat

  39. Mary Kay Wilburn says:

    My hubby was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer in Sept 2015. He will have his second repeat colonoscopy in April of 2017. We are praying for a clean scan since the last one they found several polyps that had to be removed. We are of course not in the position where you and Michael are but we have talked about where we want to travel to. We recently bought a pop-up camper and have decided that traveling from one camp ground to the next sounds like heaven for us. Visit out of the way little towns, go antiquing, stop at wineries along the way. Truly no plan except to travel with the sun. I wish you and Michael many happy memory making moments because love is what it is all about.

  40. Anne Martin says:

    Lynne, You rock once again! Your spirit is not something that can be squashed by cancer… (maybe just a sucker punch but you bounce back like one of the old blow up punching clowns from the “60’s”.) Thank-you for courageously sharing your vulnerability with so many of us. The authenticity of your triumphs over mounting loss shows through this virtual form of media. May you always catch sight of the joy and significant meaning of the loss that will be his final gift to you as you turn the corner and journey on without him by your side. It is the story of this world from the moment we take our first breath. We lose and get fewer numbers of breath despite our gains in this world. My light and peace comes from a place that this world cannot offer, but helps me to assess the losses always mindful of the greater prize from another realm. May you enjoy the spirit of Christmas and find the deeper meaning that will sustain and soothe your soul amidst the chaos that inevitably touches everyone’s life. Life matters, and it’s full of hard lessons with bittersweet truths.
    Blessings,
    Anne Martin

  41. When you go to Bali next with Michael – lmk – I will meet you will a case or two of wine. Paradise needs wine. Paradise needs you – Cancer needs an end – Maybe you need a hug – X

  42. Connie Inglis says:

    HI Lynn,
    Long time reader of your blog, love it by the way. Coming to you from Ontario Canada, (whooo hooo Go Grey Jay!! what???) Still not used to it.
    I just wanted to thank you for all the time you put into sharing as much as you do. And one day I will master that chunky wool blanket you have posted.

    All the best to you and your family, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

  43. Julie says:

    I am not a southern church lady, but I am a northeastern church lady, and I join forces with you and swing my pocket book at cancer!
    My husband has Hairy Cell Leukemia. It is in remission now.. I know the fear, the pain, the heartache.
    Lynne, miracles do happen every single day. I am praying that Michael will be the recipient of a great big one from a great big God.! Miracles happen to be His specialty!

  44. Debra Spaulding says:

    Thank you for sharing the experience of your beautiful escape. Travel does help heal the soul.

  45. Julie Madsen says:

    Dear Lynne: Bucket list: traveling this beautiful North American continent and exploring the back roads and byways…so much to see! Thank you for your honesty and reminder than there is always light…somewhere. Your darling sense of humor and keen eye for beauty makes your blog an inspiration and good for a laugh…not a bad combo. Sending healing energy for your precious Michael and may your family be strengthened with each step of this journey. xoxo

  46. Becki Pavlik says:

    Hi Lynne,
    It’s been a while since I left a comment, but I frequent your site almost once a week because, well… because I need what I find here. I hope that doesn’t sound too weird! A good chuckle or a good cry, great ideas, inspiration, and that strange and unexplainable feeling of connection with someone that you’ve never even met before because you have something in common.. It’s true that I’ve never met you,, never talked to you on the phone and yet we share the experience of having someone we love experiencing the big C word. As you might remember, my husband passed way in 2011 from colon cancer. He was my whole world, and my whole word totally changed the day he passed on.. It’s been 5 years now since his passing and more days than not, I’m still struggling, emotionally, spiritually and even financially with his absence in my life. But life goes on, I tell myself, with or without him. Most days are much better than others. I spend alot of time thinking about the things I learned from my husband, and about life in general. Depression is a word I had no experience with prior to my husband’s death, but I’ve learned about since, just as I’ve come to recognize isolation and pity parties when they come knocking on my door. They are my new enemies. But enough about me. So yes, I come to your site out of pure selfishness. You and your website feeds my soul. Keep doing what you’re doing Lynne! God bless you….

  47. ronda says:

    bucket list. hmmm. have my own battle with cancer going on right now, so my bucket list is short at the moment. I own a house in Florida … not on a beach, but its on a golf course, so it’s pretty quiet, and I have a pretty view, and I would love to be there rght now, relaxing, enjoying a glass of wine. Or maybe just a cup of tea at this time of morning, although the sun is over the yard arm SOME where, right?
    Now is the time to enjoy life. I hope Michael continues to win the battle.

  48. Myriam says:

    This is the most beautiful blog I’ve ever seen. I love your attitude and am deeply sorry your husband is so ill. What a gift though to have that kind of marriage and love for another. I wish for you a miracle. 🙏🏼❤️

  49. Elizabeth says:

    Thanks Lynne. I love to read your blog. Your photos inspire. Your words touch. I am sorry for what your family is faced with but, I love your resolve – EFF cancer!

    My bucket list is short. I want to travel to Scotland to leave a simple stone behind. It is a stone that my Dad found on a beach in New Brunswick. My parents joked at the time, that it looked like a headstone and so, when he passed away (EFF cancer!!), she had it engraved with his details.

    We traveled back to NB to scatter his ashes into the Atlantic ocean. Now, I just want to bring this little headstone to the place of his birth and leave it in an inconspicuous spot. I want to return him home. It seems to me (at least) that it would close the circle that was his life.

    Take care of each other and give yourself a hug xo

  50. MaryKay says:

    Oh Lynne, I’m so glad you two were able to make this trip. I’m so sorry Michael and you are living with this damn cancer monster. I am so glad you two are spending beautiful time in gorgeous places. You each humble me just witnessing your strength and courage. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I so hope and pray for relief and time. Blessings to you both, prayers to you each and your dear family.

  51. Jennie says:

    Beautiful words. Thank you for this, today. Your hope is truly inspiring.

  52. “When you travel… your big problems seem smaller. You see life through a different lens. And you don’t have to make your bed”

    Love this….can I quote you?

    That says it all! I totally agree. Travel is how I let go of the swamp of crap that’s sucking me down. It opens up the World and gives me a whole new perspective. It offers me introspective clarity, it humbles, it brings surprising people into my life who teach and inspire and it gives me peace. I return home refilled and ready to take it all on with renewed energy and new wisdom.

    You and Michael are an inspiration. This is such a difficult time but you two seem to be able to look-up from it all. I say, seek out your healers, go where you want to, replenish as you need to.

    Just never stop telling us your stories. I laugh, I cry, I’m by your side. Thankyou for sharing. I’m always sending love and light to you both. Cheers 💜

  53. Ute Harp says:

    I am a cancer surviver .Breatcancer and scincancer .Its great and beutifull to go travel ,the proplem is do you have the pocket for .I am lucky to live in florida were the weather is mostly sunny.I moved here twenty years ago from Germany.I have two Daughter and help them go through college and my son just finished college so there are not much funds left but i would love to visit Australia or Dubai. Thank you

    • Hi Ute,

      We have the same problem… but we saved on some great deals for our Bali trip. We are Canadian, so we used YYZdeals.com to book our travel. It was HUGE savings! Super huge!! If you put in your city airport code, you can sign up for his emails when they have deals. For example, Vancouver is YVRdeals.com as I believe it works for any city in North America.

      Hope that helps!
      Enjoy gorgeous sunny Florida and all those gorgeous palm trees 😎🌴

      Lynne xx

  54. Mary says:

    Keep on making the best choices for you -whether it is treatment or travels. No one else can know what is most important to you as individuals, as a couple, as a family during this best/worst of times. As you have been doing, continue to fight the good fight, kickass as necessary and make all the journies (internal and external) count. In admiration and solidarity.

    • Thank you Mary… your words mean a lot to me! May we all continue to fight the good fight with love, kindness and big fat belly laughs too…whatever our journey may be. xx

      Next, I need to figure out what to do with teary eyed / puffy lids. I need a cure for that puffiness. I’m thinking a sand beach and a mojito may be the next best cure 🙂

      Much love,
      Lynne xx

      • Lynne says:

        Lynne,
        You are truly an inspiration to all of those who struggle with life’s many challenges.
        Keep doing what you are doing – you are truly helping and touching so many people.
        Wishing you and your family all the best today and always.

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